There has always been a deep longing within my soul for more. More laughter, more fun, more clarity, more peace… more love. From a very young age I understood that the world was not always a kind or safe place, still I saw the colours in the wind that no one else saw. My imagination would take me to all the places I dreamt about, as I would lose my thoughts in the brilliant blue sky. The clouds were my ticket to safety. I focused on the sky for hours, and each cloud that passed me by would carry away any negative thoughts, until I was free enough to enter the beautiful space of my imgaination. The world to me was as beautiful as I made it to be in my mind, and when adults with their wavering tempers would try to tarnish that away, I would escape to the nature around, for the trees, clouds, butterflies and flowers were always more patient than people.
As I grew older, life happened. Life- with its demand to fit in and its pressure to do well- life and all its realness. Without even realizing it, I began to seek validation from the world around me. Slowly, I allowed the the world to rob me of my creative constructs by conforming to what was expected of me. Where I once saw unicorns dancing in the sky, I began to see heavy white clouds, burdened with responsibility.
The inner child in me lay dormant within my soul for years, as I consumed myself with the reality of what surrounded me. You see, it is far less easy to live in your imagination when you have to compete for a spot in this world- for a career that would mean something, wealth that would define you in the social structure, backed with sound academic achievements that proved you were distinguished from the rest. This is what was fed to me, and what is being fed to us all. This is the root from which competition amongst man stems, that forces a division rather than support amongst people.
Over the past few years, I began observing my life and the lives of those around me. Why were so many of us unhappy, even though we want more? - More education, more wealth, more mobility in our careers. And there in lies the root of the matter, the obvious problem behind the larger problem.
An apple seed is born knowing that, if he is planted in the right conditions, he will one day blossom into a majestic tree, and bear delicious fruits, thereby fulfilling his personal intentions from which his desires have originated. We too have come into this world with the same knowing. The same seeds of creation lie dormant within us, and through our connection with our higher purpose, we are able to discover what we already know. We have forgotten that we each came into this magical world with our own guidance system, which can effortlessly lead our lives into the direction of our biggest dreams, if only we would let it. Instead, we have all contributed to the creation of a life filled with boundaries and order, which slowly erodes our connection to the highest inner power which resides in us all.
But perhaps this is the purpose of life- to force us to tap into that guidance system by immersing ourselves in the constant flow of love that surrounds us - the love that flows through the flowers, trees, rivers and the air that we breathe. We are so blessed to exist in a universe that sustains us. Just think for a moment that we need not do a single thing to make the earth gravitate in the perfect way that it does. The plants give us oxygen, the rivers give us life, the birds remind us that if we believe, we too can fly. Maybe the purpose of life is to not merely find ourselves, but to create ourselves. To not merely learn, but to remember what we already know. Nature can be our teacher, and we possess the ability to see beyond the swaying of the trees gliding effortlessly with the wind, to grasp the obvious messages that they convey.
Thus began my journey to be brave- to tap into my guidance system by trusting in life implicitly. Like the apple seed, I planted myself under the right conditions to flourish. To realize my greatest sources of joy and to build a life around what I love. To surround myself with those who are benefical to my wellbeing. To nourish my mind with good thoughts, to feed my body with good food, and to simply live in the moment and be at peace with where I am. To appreciate the contrasting experiences that have molded me into who I am. To treat all beings with kindness, to uplift the lives of everyone I come into contact with, and most importantly to decipher with great clarity, who I wish to become.
I choose to value purpose rather than success, and in my quiet moments I focus on seeing the love of God in all things. If we each spend a few minutes a day observing the vast universe that surrounds us- the beauty of the night's sky illuminated by the shining stars, the glorious rain, the perfection of a flower, then I can assure you that life will be much simpler, and kinder to us all. This practice allows me to connect with my inner source, and a flood of uplifting thoughts comes rushing into my being like a powerful current from the creator of this universe. I feel my greatest connection to God in this way. Nature has always been my gateway to heaven on earth.
Along the road of life I admit that I had lost tiny pieces of myself that were dear to me, but I continue to learn everyday from my younger self. With utmost belief in the magic of this world, I tune myself into becoming more myself everyday.
I would rather have flowers in my hair than diamonds around my neck, for they remind me to nourish my dreams with the strongest roots in order for them to blossom. They remind me to search for the light above, despite the darkness below. They remind me that the greatest wealth comes not from objects of material possessions, but from the thoughts that we think, the lives we uplift, and the happiness we create. They remind me that regardless of what lies ahead, I must stay connected to my roots, to my guidance, to the love of God which dwells within us all.
Keep growing my loves